What the
HELL
did I just do today?
I did not want to or mean to tell him but with everything going on TODAY on the same day I guess I just let it slip. Didn't mean to say it but he needs to hear it just the same, I do NOT know. So much happens that we have no control over in life that we may never know. I just know that I don't want to take this from him nor do I want to see people dying in my nightmares any longer. I am so tired of being sick & waiting for life to change to feel better & being stopped at every turn when I try to get there myself. I do not know what to do. I wish to god that the demons that haunt my days would leave me in peace so I could go on with the rest of my life. I look around & see a shell of the person I once was and just keep crying. What happened when, where could it have been stopped? No one knows because there is no answer. But if there is no answer how can we fix it?